April 14

“One of the great heart-cries of men and women everywhere and under all circumstances is for “confidence”......Some “insecurity” shows itself in cringing and shyness.  Some in egotism and boasting.”  Eugenia Price, S.P.S., 4/14

Lack of confidence has been one of my struggles.  I’ve exhibited it in both arenas:  cringing and egotism.  I usually start off holding back.  This is easy to label “insecurity”.  It feels comfortable because I at least feel as though no one has noticed.  But once I find my voice and step out of the shadow I usually find myself past confidence into egotism.  Why do I have such a hard time with this?  It’s obvious that what I’m calling confidence is not the right kind of confidence.  As long as “self” is attached to it it can never be enough.  Self is rightfully insecure because it knows it is standing on shaky ground. Whether I’m acting shy or am boasting, my need for confidence can never be satisfied.  Both are just cover-ups for my insecurity.   Only the confidence that comes from God stands on firm ground--the Rock, Himself.   In Him only can I find security.

“No man has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfected in us.  By this we know that we abide in him and he in us, because he has given us of his own Spirit.”  1 John 4:12, 13