October 31

“The literal translation of ‘an horrible pit’ (“He brought me up also out of an horrible pit...” Psalm 40:2) is an horrible pit of noise.”  Eugenia Price, S.P.S. 10/12

Eugenia goes on to talk about the noise around us, but what I thought about immediately was the noise within me.  All the noise of my old thoughts running through my head.  In fact, one night this past week I woke up suddenly and “heard” my thoughts.  I wasn’t dreaming, I was thinking in my sleep.  It rather startled me because in a sense I was “talking” to myself like I often do during the day, only now I wasn’t aware of what I was saying.  What if it was all negative?  Who knows what I was telling myself in my sleep!  It made me realize just how important it is to relinquish all control in my life to God--to no longer resist Him.  I may be able to delude myself into thinking I have control over my thoughts, but as soon as I go unconscious there is a whole other realm of my mind that has it’s own free will!  I can only imagine the effect it has on my life after spending 7 hours or so indoctrinating my mind with whatever it wishes!  None of us can ever have perfect control over our lives and at this point in my life I realize I don’t want that kind of control anyway.  I’ve not always made the best decisions for myself it turns out.  Instead, as I quit resisting God, my thoughts will be God’s thoughts.  This is true freedom.

“No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you.”  John 15:15